[ Lavi pulls out one of the chairs for her, mindful of the wolf under the table. ]
Didn't want t'talk right there, and in Clubs anybody can walk in on a conversation. [ The magpie flutters off and perches on top of the curtain rod. ] Kind of seemed like you were upset.
[ She hesitates, a little perplexed by the gesture, but she does take the seat while her daemon pulls his ears back against his head defensively. Cecil sighs deeply and focuses her gaze on the table, blinking slowly as she tries to get her thoughts and feelings together. ]
Right now I'm struggling to understand what I am to you. You know I'm aware that, as a Bookman, you don't have personal connections. I understand that Allen and any other Exorcist, were they here, would likely be the exceptions to that for obvious reasons. I grew up as a soldier. I understand better than most the bonds that are forged between people when they are surrounded by death and violence.
But I am not someone who's fought at your side for years. I thought I was just a warm body to you, company you had fun with. This... Kissing my cheeks, expressing a desire for me to be safe, to protect me... holding hands and pulling out chairs... To me, these actions have deeper emotional connotations. I don't know if it's the same to you. I keep telling myself it can't be, but as I said, I... might hope the opposite is true.
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Didn't want t'talk right there, and in Clubs anybody can walk in on a conversation. [ The magpie flutters off and perches on top of the curtain rod. ] Kind of seemed like you were upset.
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Right now I'm struggling to understand what I am to you. You know I'm aware that, as a Bookman, you don't have personal connections. I understand that Allen and any other Exorcist, were they here, would likely be the exceptions to that for obvious reasons. I grew up as a soldier. I understand better than most the bonds that are forged between people when they are surrounded by death and violence.
But I am not someone who's fought at your side for years. I thought I was just a warm body to you, company you had fun with. This... Kissing my cheeks, expressing a desire for me to be safe, to protect me... holding hands and pulling out chairs... To me, these actions have deeper emotional connotations. I don't know if it's the same to you. I keep telling myself it can't be, but as I said, I... might hope the opposite is true.